And next thing I know I’m on the next train to New York.
Finn didn’t really know what he was doing or what possessed him to want to jump on a train at this time and go to New York. He didn’t think he would be seeing Rachel again for months, not until the next holiday when she would come home to Lima to be with her dads. It had been over a week since she left, and Finn felt things slowly getting worse as time went on. He had never missed anyone more in his entire life. And the worst part was? Even when he saw her he couldn’t act like her boyfriend or fiance. He broke up with her. Friends was better than nothing though, he thought. Even though they could barely be friends even when she was dating Puck and Jesse.
Santana said she would most likely be mad at him and he was so grateful that she wasn’t and she wanted him to visit. His heart pounded unevenly in his chest the entire train ride and he couldn’t sit still. He fiddled with his phone, but he only ended up going through old texts between him and Rachel. Then he tried his iPod, but of course every song reminded him of her. There was no way he was going to stand in front of her and not want to just kiss all of their problems away.
He slept most of the way, until he felt the train stop and he looked at his watch. 3am. The urge to text her was overwhelming, no matter how early it was. Hey, my train just got in. He had a feeling she would be asleep, but either way his first option was to find a hotel of some kind where he could have at least a little bit of sleep. Too bad New York was 50 times the size of Lima and he had no idea where he was.
You haven’t…?
Well, I can take the train tonight. Unless… you don’t want to see me so soon.I’m glad we’re talking, Rachel.
No, of course not. Should I have?
No, that would be great, Finn. You can come in as soon as you’d like.Me too, Finn. I’m sorry it took so long. And I’m sorry you thought I didn’t care.No, no. Please, I’d prefer it if you never took it off, if we’re being honest.
Okay, well I’ll tell mom and pack some stuff.Don’t worry, I know you care. And I love you.I don’t plan on it.
I’ll see you soon, then. :)I love you.
Good. I can’t wait. :)
You haven’t…?
Well, I can take the train tonight. Unless… you don’t want to see me so soon.I’m glad we’re talking, Rachel.
No, of course not. Should I have?
No, that would be great, Finn. You can come in as soon as you’d like.Me too, Finn. I’m sorry it took so long. And I’m sorry you thought I didn’t care.
No, no. Please, I’d prefer it if you never took it off, if we’re being honest. Okay, well I’ll tell mom and pack some stuff. Don’t worry, I know you care. And I love you.
I think you should know how much I love you by now, Finn. I think you were right, about New York being what’s best for me. But without you, it doesn’t feel right.Do you know how scared I am of you losing that feeling one day? Of you just waking up one day and forgetting? I’m sorry… I was just trying to do what’s best for you.
You know I would be there if I could.Finn, you’re the one. I’m sure of that. I…
Friends are allowed to visit each other, right? I mean, we’re still friends…I know you love me. And I love you. But things change, you know? One day you might just… not anymore. I wish you didn’t have to be without me.
Right. Friends. I guess they can. Do you want me to visit? Or are you going to start crying because, like, I don’t think I’d be able to leave if you did that.I will always love you. I understand why you want me to be without you, it’s okay.
I make no promises on that but I do want to see you.I just know I’m selfish and I wouldn’t be able to handle seeing you with another guy… Even though you’re single. But I don’t want you to be without me. I want our shoe box apartment just as much as you do.
Maybe I can come visit for a little while?I don’t really see myself as being single. I haven’t even taken my ring off yet. We have all summer to figure it out..
I would love for you to visit.
You haven’t…? Well, I can take the train tonight. Unless… you don’t want to see me so soon.
I’m glad we’re talking, Rachel.
Yeah, that sounds good, dude. Any sort of distraction is good.
Most def man. Believe me. We could all use the “distraction” after such an eventful and crazy year. We can catch up on some much needed video game time, maybe hit up the park for some recreational use, catch a movie or whatever else we can think of. ^^
Crazy is an understatement. All of it sounds good, man. We have to get in as much as we can with the rest of the guys before they all go.
I think you should know how much I love you by now, Finn. I think you were right, about New York being what’s best for me. But without you, it doesn’t feel right.Do you know how scared I am of you losing that feeling one day? Of you just waking up one day and forgetting? I’m sorry… I was just trying to do what’s best for you.
You know I would be there if I could.Finn, you’re the one. I’m sure of that. I…
Friends are allowed to visit each other, right? I mean, we’re still friends…I know you love me. And I love you. But things change, you know? One day you might just… not anymore. I wish you didn’t have to be without me.
Right. Friends. I guess they can. Do you want me to visit? Or are you going to start crying because, like, I don’t think I’d be able to leave if you did that.I will always love you. I understand why you want me to be without you, it’s okay.
I make no promises on that but I do want to see you.
I just know I’m selfish and I wouldn’t be able to handle seeing you with another guy… Even though you’re single. But I don’t want you to be without me. I want our shoe box apartment just as much as you do. Maybe I can come visit for a little while?
I’m fine. I mean it’s great knowing Rachel’s fine too and everyone’s just fine with everything.
Ok. Just checkin man. We definitely gotta make some time to chill and hang out this summer. Make it last before we don’t have the time anymore, ya know.
Yeah, that sounds good, dude. Any sort of distraction is good.
